Sesungguhnya..
Aku impikan sebuah taman dipenuhi bunga2..
Arnab putih bermain-main..
Juga kicauan burung2 bersama serangga2 kecil..
Di mana aku boleh membiarkan kebencianku tinggal di sana..
Kebencian pada diriku sendiri..
Di mana aku menyerahkan segala perasaanku padanya..
Sememangnya ia begitu indah..
Malangnya..
Ia menjadi sebuah derita apabila hati meragui kepercayaan..
Segala kekuranganku menjadi nyata ketika ini..
Semua perasaan rendah diriku kembali menghampiri..
Aku..
Hanyalah seorang insan biasa..
Di mana patut aku letakkan kekuranganku ini..
Agar aku sedar dari mimpiku yang tidak patut aku mimpikan..
Aku sangat lemah..
Kelemahan ini menjadikan aku terlalu baik..
Menjadikan aku terlalu setia..
Tak mengendahkan semua lelaki bila di hati hanya ada dia..
Aku naif bila ia berkaitan dengan cinta..
Kerana aku hanya inginkan sebuah kesetiaan..
Kejujuran, dan kepercayaan dalam sesebuah perhubungan..
Dan cukuplah sekadar aku merasakan kewujudanku bila bersama dengannya..
Itu sudah memadai bagiku..
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
it's all about heart..
when the tree's leaves fall to the ground..
i can feel the wind..
the breeze let me want to keep dreaming..
in my very own world..
every time i feel a pain..
i hope i can juz let it go..
when i feel like wanna cry..
i tell myself that you're strong enough than juz wasting your tears..
i look above and see the sky..
feeling jealous with the white cloud..
if i can be you..
i'll be the one that never had loneliness in my heart..
looking you happy moving around up there with the other cloudy friends..
even you're sad..
people down there will dancing happily..
got your cold lovely rain..
and i'm the first one will smile and run to the outside..
since then..
i've no regrets with my life..
with you beside me..
letting your rain falling down..
with the warmness atmosphere..
it keeps me feeling better inside..
because it's all about heart..
and i'll always smiling..
because of you...
i can feel the wind..
the breeze let me want to keep dreaming..
in my very own world..
every time i feel a pain..
i hope i can juz let it go..
when i feel like wanna cry..
i tell myself that you're strong enough than juz wasting your tears..
i look above and see the sky..
feeling jealous with the white cloud..
if i can be you..
i'll be the one that never had loneliness in my heart..
looking you happy moving around up there with the other cloudy friends..
even you're sad..
people down there will dancing happily..
got your cold lovely rain..
and i'm the first one will smile and run to the outside..
since then..
i've no regrets with my life..
with you beside me..
letting your rain falling down..
with the warmness atmosphere..
it keeps me feeling better inside..
because it's all about heart..
and i'll always smiling..
because of you...
Friday, January 8, 2010
Leave it behind..
I want to leave it behind..
Is it ok?
I want to forget all that..
Is it ok?
I want to keep it silent..
Is it ok?
I want to ignore it..
Is it ok?
I don't want to remember it anymore..
I don't want to remember it..
That old memory..
Is it ok?
I want to forget all that..
Is it ok?
I want to keep it silent..
Is it ok?
I want to ignore it..
Is it ok?
I don't want to remember it anymore..
I don't want to remember it..
That old memory..
Saturday, October 3, 2009
...Tagged with music...
DIRECTION...
1) Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2) For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3) YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4) Tag 10 friends.Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.Have fun.
1) someone says ‘Are you okay’ you say?
...My Memory_Winter Sonata Theme...
...No, I was thinking about my past memory..I missed it very much...
2) How would you describe yourself?
...Ku petik bintang_Jay Jay...
...I pluck a star that never reach..To face a pain journey..but I will face it with brave...
3) What do you like in a guy/girl?
...Aku ingin pulang_Ebiet G Ade...
...I want to come back to you...
4) How do you feel today?
...Rindu bayangan_Jay Jay...
...I miss him so much.. almost 1 year don't meet him..what a painful...
5) What is your life’s purpose?
...Parachute_Sean Lennon...
...What is that mean? It can be 'always hang over that parachute' or 'waiting for die'..No..It's not like that..My life's purpose is brave to jump and brave to land at the ground..yes..It must be like this...
6) What’s your motto?
...Sarang hae yo_Kim Hyung Sup...
...Love you?..That's my motto?..haha..I never know that...
7) What do your friends think about you?
...A shoulder to cry on_Tommy Page...
...Owh..really?..That's good that I can borrow my shoulder for them to cry..At least I can help my friend let their tears out even if I can't help their problems..Right?
8) What do your parents think about you?
...Bila bunga dipetik orang_Sejati...
...Oh my God!..What a coincidence..They must worried if I married with someone one day bcoz their flower will gone from their view..Oh! What should I do?..If they don't let me marry, then I juz follow their order..But they're not like that..I know..Love you mum and dad!
9) What do you think about very often?
...Thank you_Dido...
...I want to thanks to all my friends very much bcoz this is my last semester in this university...I wonder how can I show my thanks to them with a big thanks that I brought...hmmm~...
10) What is 2 + 2?
...Nyanyian rindu buat kekasih_Data...
...4..What a simple question that contains hidden meaning..
11) What do you think of your best friend?
...Pertama dan terakhir_Get...
...Yup..Absolutely..She is the first and the last..Until we meet again in heaven, and there is no 'last' at that time...right? ^_^
12) What is your life story?
...Antara gadis_Dinamik...
...Am I one of the girl that so cute?..Am I one of the girl that so kind?..Am I one of the girl that so bad? Which one? The answer is on you...
13) What do you want to be when you grow up?
...Cinta antara kita_Baizura Kahar ft Duta...
...Love someone..A girl that will love a man without doubt..Prove my loyalty to him...
14) What do you think when you see the person you like?
...Gugurnya bunga cinta_Laksamana...
...It means, it's my time to love someone, right?A fell flower means a time for that flower to be independent..yup..I think so...
15) What will you dance to at your wedding?
...Gemuruh_Faizal Tahir...
...Nervous dance?..Maybe I'm too nervous at that time..haha...
16) What will they play at your funeral?
...I got it from my mama_Will I Am feat. Nicole Scherzinger...
...Got what?..I hope that something that can make me rest in peace..like Al-Fatihah, Yaasin...
17) What is your hobby / interest?
...Nobody_The Wonder Girls...
...My hobbies is related with nobody..but maybe I have hobbies that same with somebody like animanga, cosplay, emo...
18) What is your biggest fear?
...Everybody_Backstreet Boys...
...Yes...My biggest fear is when I think what are everybody think about me...
19) What is your biggest secret?
...Trouble is my friend_Lenka...
...Now, it's no more secret when everbody know it..hummpphh...
20) What do you want right now?
...Animal instinct_Cranbberries...
...If I got that instinct, I will be an abnormal person..huhu..I like different...
21) What do you think of your friends?
...Hasta la vista_Jordan Francis...
...No..no..I didn't mean it..but I will say it when I'm gone first before you...
22) What will you post this as?
...Tak mungkin kerana sayang_Alyah...
...This post is not because of love..but because of my friend..~Aja~..who tagged me..and because I like it..hohoho...XD..I like it...
Tag 10 people:
...All my 'Dreamers in my world'...
1) Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2) For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3) YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4) Tag 10 friends.Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.Have fun.
1) someone says ‘Are you okay’ you say?
...My Memory_Winter Sonata Theme...
...No, I was thinking about my past memory..I missed it very much...
2) How would you describe yourself?
...Ku petik bintang_Jay Jay...
...I pluck a star that never reach..To face a pain journey..but I will face it with brave...
3) What do you like in a guy/girl?
...Aku ingin pulang_Ebiet G Ade...
...I want to come back to you...
4) How do you feel today?
...Rindu bayangan_Jay Jay...
...I miss him so much.. almost 1 year don't meet him..what a painful...
5) What is your life’s purpose?
...Parachute_Sean Lennon...
...What is that mean? It can be 'always hang over that parachute' or 'waiting for die'..No..It's not like that..My life's purpose is brave to jump and brave to land at the ground..yes..It must be like this...
6) What’s your motto?
...Sarang hae yo_Kim Hyung Sup...
...Love you?..That's my motto?..haha..I never know that...
7) What do your friends think about you?
...A shoulder to cry on_Tommy Page...
...Owh..really?..That's good that I can borrow my shoulder for them to cry..At least I can help my friend let their tears out even if I can't help their problems..Right?
8) What do your parents think about you?
...Bila bunga dipetik orang_Sejati...
...Oh my God!..What a coincidence..They must worried if I married with someone one day bcoz their flower will gone from their view..Oh! What should I do?..If they don't let me marry, then I juz follow their order..But they're not like that..I know..Love you mum and dad!
9) What do you think about very often?
...Thank you_Dido...
...I want to thanks to all my friends very much bcoz this is my last semester in this university...I wonder how can I show my thanks to them with a big thanks that I brought...hmmm~...
10) What is 2 + 2?
...Nyanyian rindu buat kekasih_Data...
...4..What a simple question that contains hidden meaning..
11) What do you think of your best friend?
...Pertama dan terakhir_Get...
...Yup..Absolutely..She is the first and the last..Until we meet again in heaven, and there is no 'last' at that time...right? ^_^
12) What is your life story?
...Antara gadis_Dinamik...
...Am I one of the girl that so cute?..Am I one of the girl that so kind?..Am I one of the girl that so bad? Which one? The answer is on you...
13) What do you want to be when you grow up?
...Cinta antara kita_Baizura Kahar ft Duta...
...Love someone..A girl that will love a man without doubt..Prove my loyalty to him...
14) What do you think when you see the person you like?
...Gugurnya bunga cinta_Laksamana...
...It means, it's my time to love someone, right?A fell flower means a time for that flower to be independent..yup..I think so...
15) What will you dance to at your wedding?
...Gemuruh_Faizal Tahir...
...Nervous dance?..Maybe I'm too nervous at that time..haha...
16) What will they play at your funeral?
...I got it from my mama_Will I Am feat. Nicole Scherzinger...
...Got what?..I hope that something that can make me rest in peace..like Al-Fatihah, Yaasin...
17) What is your hobby / interest?
...Nobody_The Wonder Girls...
...My hobbies is related with nobody..but maybe I have hobbies that same with somebody like animanga, cosplay, emo...
18) What is your biggest fear?
...Everybody_Backstreet Boys...
...Yes...My biggest fear is when I think what are everybody think about me...
19) What is your biggest secret?
...Trouble is my friend_Lenka...
...Now, it's no more secret when everbody know it..hummpphh...
20) What do you want right now?
...Animal instinct_Cranbberries...
...If I got that instinct, I will be an abnormal person..huhu..I like different...
21) What do you think of your friends?
...Hasta la vista_Jordan Francis...
...No..no..I didn't mean it..but I will say it when I'm gone first before you...
22) What will you post this as?
...Tak mungkin kerana sayang_Alyah...
...This post is not because of love..but because of my friend..~Aja~..who tagged me..and because I like it..hohoho...XD..I like it...
Tag 10 people:
...All my 'Dreamers in my world'...
...Tagged...
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
...I'm ill...
2. How much cash do you have on you?
...RM34.85...
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"
...coming soon...
4. Favorite planet?
...Bezita Planet..Dragon Ball..a planet with choas..war..and the important thing is..a planet where Goku born...
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
....Abg Razali K.Ina..husband of my foster-sister...
6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone?
...discoid..juz ringtone...
7. What shirt are you wearing?
...T-shirt..white colour..with a big butterfly in front...
8. Do you "label" yourself?
...label??..mybe not...
9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing.
...asida..no brand...
10. Bright or Dark Room?
...better bright...
11. What do you think about the last person who took this survey?
...she is so brutal..fun..funny..kind..good..and my bestfriend..~Aja~..hohoho...
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
...nothing coz sleep early..too tired..visited my friends home for Hari Raya yesterday...
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
...nite..meh cni jap, em*****h!..)..* is sensored..hehe.. ^_^=
15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
...Alor Gajah..Melaka..Malaysia...
16. What's a saying that you use a lot?
..."siottt btol la"...
17.Who told you they loved you last?
...Zaty...
18. Last furry thing you touched?
...my Keropi ^^..a blanket...
19. How many drugs have you done in the past three days?
...0.0000......no drugs in my life..except drugs of love..huhu...
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
...currently, none of one roll of film..juz used a digital camera right now...
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
...low school..an age that I like to play the most..yeahh!..never think about complicated thought at that age..not juz like now...
22. Your worst enemy?
...no enemy..but vice versa..I'm the worst enemy..so though..argghh!..so difficult too fight...
23. What is your current desktop picture?
...Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfiri wallpaper...
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
...Take care of yourself...
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, which would you choose?
...Of course I want to fly..fly in a million years without stop so that I can let my heart free...
26. Do you like someone?
...Yes..I do...
27. The last song you listened to?
...Jay Jay..Rindu bayangan...
28. Who do you want to take this survey?
...Maybe Aein, Nadia and all my 'Dreamers in my world'..I think...
...I'm ill...
2. How much cash do you have on you?
...RM34.85...
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"
...coming soon...
4. Favorite planet?
...Bezita Planet..Dragon Ball..a planet with choas..war..and the important thing is..a planet where Goku born...
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
....Abg Razali K.Ina..husband of my foster-sister...
6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone?
...discoid..juz ringtone...
7. What shirt are you wearing?
...T-shirt..white colour..with a big butterfly in front...
8. Do you "label" yourself?
...label??..mybe not...
9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing.
...asida..no brand...
10. Bright or Dark Room?
...better bright...
11. What do you think about the last person who took this survey?
...she is so brutal..fun..funny..kind..good..and my bestfriend..~Aja~..hohoho...
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
...nothing coz sleep early..too tired..visited my friends home for Hari Raya yesterday...
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
...nite..meh cni jap, em*****h!..)..* is sensored..hehe.. ^_^=
15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
...Alor Gajah..Melaka..Malaysia...
16. What's a saying that you use a lot?
..."siottt btol la"...
17.Who told you they loved you last?
...Zaty...
18. Last furry thing you touched?
...my Keropi ^^..a blanket...
19. How many drugs have you done in the past three days?
...0.0000......no drugs in my life..except drugs of love..huhu...
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
...currently, none of one roll of film..juz used a digital camera right now...
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
...low school..an age that I like to play the most..yeahh!..never think about complicated thought at that age..not juz like now...
22. Your worst enemy?
...no enemy..but vice versa..I'm the worst enemy..so though..argghh!..so difficult too fight...
23. What is your current desktop picture?
...Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfiri wallpaper...
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
...Take care of yourself...
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, which would you choose?
...Of course I want to fly..fly in a million years without stop so that I can let my heart free...
26. Do you like someone?
...Yes..I do...
27. The last song you listened to?
...Jay Jay..Rindu bayangan...
28. Who do you want to take this survey?
...Maybe Aein, Nadia and all my 'Dreamers in my world'..I think...
Monday, September 7, 2009
I am emo~ II
I am emo~
Of course
I admit it...
I am emo~ girl..
Since a long time ago
Since I'm in school
In high school..
Especially...
I'm sorry
Really sorry for my emo~
I always make you confused
Make you don't understand me anymore
That's all my fault
I always emo~
When I'm jealous with a girl that close to you
When I felt that I'm not at the same level as you
When I felt that I'm too stupid compared to you
When I felt that I'm not deserved to have a good friend like you
When I felt that I'm a worst friend for you
When I felt that I always make you feel difficult in your life
When I felt that someone had said about our different level
When I felt that you ignored me sometime
When you are too kind to me
When I always let my emo~ controlled myself
It is because..
I love you so much as my bestfriend
I'm too afraid that I will lost you
I'm afraid that I will lost my only bestfriend
I want you as my only bestfriend in my heart
I want you as my only bestfriend untill we meet again in heaven..
I'm really sorry for my emo~
I'm really sorry for my mistake
I'm really sorry for my unmatured thoughts
I'm really sorry for my bad behaviour
The memories with you is my beautiful life that I had
The memories with you...
Aja...
Thank you for concern me
Thank you for love me as a friend
Thank you for being a good friend for me..
Untill now...
Of course
I admit it...
I am emo~ girl..
Since a long time ago
Since I'm in school
In high school..
Especially...
I'm sorry
Really sorry for my emo~
I always make you confused
Make you don't understand me anymore
That's all my fault
I always emo~
When I'm jealous with a girl that close to you
When I felt that I'm not at the same level as you
When I felt that I'm too stupid compared to you
When I felt that I'm not deserved to have a good friend like you
When I felt that I'm a worst friend for you
When I felt that I always make you feel difficult in your life
When I felt that someone had said about our different level
When I felt that you ignored me sometime
When you are too kind to me
When I always let my emo~ controlled myself
It is because..
I love you so much as my bestfriend
I'm too afraid that I will lost you
I'm afraid that I will lost my only bestfriend
I want you as my only bestfriend in my heart
I want you as my only bestfriend untill we meet again in heaven..
I'm really sorry for my emo~
I'm really sorry for my mistake
I'm really sorry for my unmatured thoughts
I'm really sorry for my bad behaviour
The memories with you is my beautiful life that I had
The memories with you...
Aja...
Thank you for concern me
Thank you for love me as a friend
Thank you for being a good friend for me..
Untill now...
For surely,
This is not a dream...
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
I am EMO ~
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